May 2013
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mental_floss on tumblr: Wonderful Words With No... →
thelittlemermaid: motherjones: mentalflossr: Sometimes we must turn to other languages to find le mot juste. Here are a whole bunch of foreign words with no direct English equivalent. 1. Kummerspeck (German) Excess weight gained from emotional overeating. Literally, grief bacon. 2. Shemomedjamo (Georgian) You know when you’re… “Grief Bacon” ! Schlimazel and schlemiel. I need to...
May 21st
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May 20th
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May 18th
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The commotion will start in a few minutes. Who knows how the little guy be today. He’s on an upswing in his cycle but the cycle is dissolving. Right now, the noise in the house is snoring, cats munching, and the chorus of birds outside. The sky is a pastel explosion. When asked at school/work, about how he is doing, I answer, “Awful,” and explain a little bit. I...
May 17th
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crazylovewords: I want to be the whimsical wonderful mama and teacher that I could be, the one who has pajama drive-in movie parties and pretend hot air balloon rides and makes big messes in the bathroom from shaving cream and finger paint and all the wonderful things. But I am tired. That dream is the hardest to relinquish, of all things… That, at least for now, that is too much. For both...
May 16th
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May 15th
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Our kids are hard. But there are shining moments that I have only the feelings and stories of, and those will never be close to the moment. The Diva has her own unique challenges, her own disabilities, and she is amazing. Her speech is limited, as is her understanding, but it grows by leaps and bounds. After the park, I take her out of the car and ask her if I can give her a kiss, by saying,...
May 11th
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Let's make Dean in gym shorts the most reblogged...
carnivaloftherandom: annieloveswinchester: j2mslittlebitch: ilivebetweenjohnsthighs: “Challenge accepted!” —SPN fandom. omg this is still going IT’S A RULE TO REBLOG EVERY TIME IT SHOWS UP ON YOUR DASH. i’m not even in the supernatural fandom and i’m still going to reblog lost count of the times i’ve reblogged this This is how we do it!!! every time xxx Fandom rule...
May 11th
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crazylovewords: Some of our awesome indoor kids’ gym items came today — stuff to practice crawling, kicking, jumping, and catching. I hope that the slow transformation from bedroom to children’s gym helps with all the wiggles!! Maybe. Yesterday, when we had an appointment with our psychiatrist, my husband was amazed at hearing all of our challenges and all of the ways we are supporting Little...
May 10th
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“Hey, Dan. It’s 3:30! Time to wake up!” says the CO2 detector. “As long as you’re awake, can you replace my battery? I’ll be an extra butt if you don’t!”
May 4th
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As much of a handful the little man, even on his best of days (today was a good day), to think where he could have been placed chills my bones. He is a hard little boy, but he is hard because he is so deeply hurt. A real hurt. Putting our skills on the side, our love and commitment is what is making this work. These are the rare things. His reactivity to genuine affection terrifies him, as it...
May 3rd
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May 3rd
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April 2013
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“Where did we ever get the crazy idea that in order to make children do better,...”
– Jane Nelsen (via crazylovewords)
Apr 30th
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Apr 26th
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crazy love words: Last night, we tried our hand at... →
crazylovewords: Last night, we tried our hand at co-sleeping for the first time. It seemed to make Little Man sleep a lot better, with very little sweating, much less tossing and turning, and no screaming in the night. However, I woke up constantly, every time he moved, whimpered, and even breathed strange. I… Little Man’s first day of school - kindergarten - was his sixth...
Apr 24th
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Apr 24th
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Apr 24th
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At 11:36 PM, the little guy had a nightmare. A screaming nightmare that I thought someone was actually axe-murdering him but no- that’s just trauma. We tried an experiment, in which he sleeps in our room in a sleeping bag. I felt bad and slept on the floor with him. He’s too old for co-sleeping, so this is a fair compromise. There’s another reason for not co-sleeping, but I...
Apr 23rd
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Apr 19th
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Hey, everyone!
crazylovewords: You cannot catch cerebral palsy. You cannot catch autism. When a child with a disability and their family sits near you, moving away from them only makes you look like an ass.   It does. It makes you look like a giant buttface, assbutt. No, for serious. Three different families in the kids-Patient First ‘needed’ to around the corner to a different part of the...
Apr 19th
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crazylovewords: Am I in bizarro world? How did I become the parent that a teacher doesn’t want to maintain communication with? How does that even happen? How does the teacher get to a point where everything you say is literally worth a grain of salt? When you have a teaching degree and 4x as much experience? Welcome to RAD? It is especially aggravating to me because the school is my school....
Apr 16th
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We’re away from the kids and chaos for a night, at a plantation-turned-B&B, called Prospect Hill. It is quiet, silent with stars, and my system is cranked up too high. This is called “Secondary Trauma,” as trauma is a thing you share. I am staring at the stars. I see the Hydra, Canis Major (with it’s white-hot star Sirius), Orion, the Twins. The Drinking Gourd is...
Apr 14th
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Apr 13th
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Apr 13th
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crazylovewords: On the bright side, Diva took her first solo steps today! All for… YO GABBA GABBA!
Apr 11th
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“Things happen, or they stop happening, and who can tell you why? [……] Because...”
– Amy Hempel “Breathing Jesus”, Reasons to Live I brought this book with me today. I’ve read the story twice, now, at lunch. Twice, now, again. I don’t why, but my heart feels better. No- that is a lie. I know.
Apr 10th
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True American Rules →
JFK! All the way!
Apr 10th
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I’m awake because of a weird dream involving the little man and pee (him, not me) and that our big cat was hungry and knocks things on the floor to wake me up to feed him. It is quiet and dark now. The kids and Audra are sleeping, but the cats are awake. The blind cat is on my lap and she never goes on people’s laps, as the lap may move and she may tumble earthward. One regret I...
Apr 8th
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On the bright side, the first season of Fosters’ Home for Imaginary Friends is on Netflix.
Apr 7th
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crazylovewords: Some days it is hard to enjoy my child. Those are usually the same days that I really, really appreciate my husband. I’m going through the motions, it feels like. Today especially. I am low on the Empathy and a bit on the Acceptance, but I see why he’s being a tremendous butt. He is doing everything possible to push us away by being a tremendous butt and showing us...
Apr 7th
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On our way home. I can’t say this was the most relaxing vacations, but I think we did some good work with the little guy. We’re pretty sure the diva is bonding with us. The little guy will be a long haul but we are getting a good start. A tiring one though.
Apr 6th
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machistado: lordoftheinternet: you know what’s adorable? cat feet look at them aww little toes kitties Let’s see how adorable you think cat feet are when 8 of them are digging into your face at 4 am.  hahaha Cats’ paws are adorable. hahahahaha Let’s ignore what that cuteness is hiding underneath. Claws. They are hiding claws. Do you know what is nice? Skin. You...
Apr 3rd
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Apr 2nd
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Apr 2nd
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So the Spring Break (woo) vacation is going less than good. Less than relaxing. The help, from family, that we were told was going to be here to support us, isn’t here. I mean, the people are here; their actual support is elsewhere. Maybe it’s at another house in the Outer Banks- I don’t know. Some are scared of the little guy. They are afraid of him yet not listening to us...
Apr 1st
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Apr 1st
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machistado: What if Kanye released a mixtape tomorrow but when you downloaded it and played the songs, it turned out to be a Taylor Swift album? I’m freaking out.  That would give me a brand new level of respect for him. It’s already pretty high.
Apr 1st
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March 2013
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crazylovewords: Sigh, making a joke about someone being in a family wedding and that family member stating firmly - “I get to decide that.” Clearly not able to hear a joke. Right now, I am feeling like it may be a long six days. Probably not very restive. Yeah I heard that too. That and a certain small male family member cannot be controlled.
Mar 31st
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Mar 31st
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We’re in the Outer Banks for Spring Break (woo!). The little guy was a mess all day waiting for us to go. He slept pretty much the whole ride, which is actually what I hoped and expected. At Panera, for dinner, I got really upset when he bit me and he got fearful and sad at that reaction; it’s odd to say that, as most people would get really upset when bit. I was more tired then...
Mar 31st
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crazylovewords: Nothing like a few pieces of flipped furniture to say that you know your parents care about you. And then, while still feeling super uncomfortable and on the toilet, he called me his “daddy”. Then he was in panic mode for the rest of the night, because he was briefly vulnerable.
Mar 27th
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Mar 27th
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My lunch bag fell off its closet shelf sometime during the day. The glass Pyrex shattered all through the inside of the bag. My lunch was inside the Pyrex; now, glass and pasta are in the trash can. I’m sitting behind the stage, hungry and all of sudden tired, doing my best not to cry.
Mar 26th
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crazylovewords: Some days, it is very very hard not to use my teacher, strict voice. It’s not a cruel or unkind voice but it is strict. It works wonders with preschoolers and my niece. It instantly triggers a huge meltdown with little man. I can see the storm in his eyes right away. On the bright side, I am beginning to realize what I did quickly enough to recover the situation....
Mar 24th
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This evening went smooth(ish). We had pizza in front of a movie, Despicable Me. But, some things: -The part where Grue lets the girls get taken away had the little guy in tears. In total hand-shaky tears. Audra hasn’t seen this side of him often, an actual - though accidental - vulnerable face of his. It was completely triggering to him. The Diva laughs riotously at the sad and bad parts...
Mar 23rd
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phinflynn: “Ah, Perry the platypus!” “What an unexpected -“ “WAIT, WAIT, WAIT!” “You’re trapped!” “By societal convention!” “Look! We’re in a fine dining environment. Everyone knows not to throw a scene in a fancy restaurant!” “That’s right. You’re trapped. Sit down.”
Mar 23rd
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And so...
We left the studio and when we got into car, he challenged a family of three (mom, son, daughter) to a fist fight, by punching at them until I was able to get the car in a different direction. He then punched Diva’s talking puppy in the face and the back of Audra’s seat. Back home, he was a giant mess. A complete tornado. No bath. One story. Super tucked in. We are tired. But we...
Mar 22nd
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Little man is a one to one trial session of tae kwon do. The attachment therapist we are at least a year away from being at a place from where should be for this to be successful. I’m listening to a ten kid class. It reminds me of the monastery. The order and the purpose and that there is motion with its end being itself. It’s hard to quite explain. I think I hear him hollering. I...
Mar 21st
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Revelation
We just got out of the session I which the little guy was told he won’t ever be living with his bio-mom and bio-dad ever again. That he’s stuck with us and we’re stuck with him and that’s all awesome. We’ll see how tonight goes…
Mar 19th
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Mar 17th
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